Sunday, July 06, 2008

To my simple pleasure:





i buy you for a buck.

hot, steamy, soft- light crunch on the sides.
fill my mouth and burn my inside.

rolled in yellow wrap, swiftly undressed.
dipped in redness; soon chomping bliss.

you, my delectable carbo-delight.
you always make me feel so right.
how is it you remain so good?

i am on my way.
hold tight.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

city dwells



city dwelling
depletes my everlasting try
from yearn to earn
no one comes by

city dweller you make me small
propagating short-come hopes
leading us to great falls

city inhabitants lose your soul
your pipe dream
quack specialty
one big scream

let go.

Saturday, May 03, 2008



every friday Miss Mandy and I teach bible at a local public school.

It can be very draining, depending on the kids mood and energy level.

This past Friday, May 2nd was ridiculous.

We literally had to go get the principal to reprimand her 'peace ambassadors'.

I thought a scare tactic would work. and it did. but who knows if will affect next week's class.

There are some kids who are just fabulous! They respect us without question...the girl in this video is one of the few.

Alex is great. she is what I like to call my sweet-diva!

Love her.

Sunday, April 27, 2008


i remember when you took this.

tired from balboa-summer's green.

my eyes were heavy from low est-eem.

you knew you it.

i knew it.

beautiful for a moment

but in essence, a hard day.

clickity-clock


clickity-clock
the time turns
one more day gone
another one returns

go i feel; go to stay
ansy dancing
pas de bourrée?

stand up straight
voice is clear
my hair is par
smile in stitch

clickity-clock
another one comes
please wave high
please hug tight
pray for him
pray for her
go home

another day returns.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

language, you pain me so


Language:

from the depths of being I yearn for union;
where word becomes flesh and
mind flushes to page.
my
strings of thoughts panting.
illusions are racing.
utterances detained.

don't you hear my cry or
my ever-present brain-pang?

loosen the chains.
set my tongue free,
imperatively
eagerly,
despairingly.

Let thy Word reign.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

typical


(buzz buzz)

Binks.

finally.

i know.

Nikki, did you dream last night?

i don't remember.

oh, well, I did.

what happened?

your dad gave us advice.

Rebekah, I can't interpret right now.

i'll call you when you're interested.

i'm just tired.

i know.

Loves.

Loves.

(push 'end')

Saturday, April 19, 2008



My greatest desire is to be stretched by LOVE's fight.
Reaching, Calling, Satisfying, Rectifying you come towards me.
I can not thank Ye enough.
I also don't understand.
For what ever it is worth...I give you thanks again.

daily dual

bereft,
derelict, deserted, desolate,
forsaken,
lorn,
forlorn

insert,
interject,
interlard, interpolate, interpose,
inject

Hee-Ya.

Beginning Rewind...Forward: Thoughts on Re-Creation...



As I have walked now with the Lord for 15 years there has been a recurring experience, where I think I comprehend just who God is then He completely throws me way off. Why would I think, why should any of us think, He should interact with us any other way?

The scriptures show us from the very first chapter, from the very first sentence of the Bible, that God is dynamic; He is repeatedly performing deeds that Wow his Beloved people, that continually and ironically prove his Consistent and ever-faithful Character!

There is One identity descriptor of God I have recently discovered that is completely overlooked….God as Creator. We tend to see God as Creator within the limits of the one “creation account”. Now, if you want to look at and use scripture in way that forces you to construct lists and make sterile conclusive statements about God, then, in my humble opinion, God’s nature as creator does exist within the pages of Genesis 1-2. But what fun is that? Honestly? That doesn’t do justice to what God wants to reveal to you!

I’m sure there is more to what I am about to say, however, I beginning to see the creation account as a home-base, a premise, a thesis, a foundation for all the different ways God manifests his Nature. It is the main and primary piece to God’s character development in this story of hope and life.
This book is not a manual, it is a poetic, romantic and daring epic of truth that is to speak and shape our physical and spiritual reality!

The premise begins- Genesis 1:1-3
1. In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.
2. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.
3. And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light.
4. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness.

Several verses later, God creates Adam’, “man” in Hebrew. This is the only instance of God’s creations throughout the six-day period, that God made something in His own Image.

We, as readers of this story, can see immediately that the activity between man and God is so different and so special compared to any other.

Three times the scripture says in Genesis 1:27, God “created.” This is extremely significant in that three signifies in the Hebrew culture, divine. There is a divine branding, spiritual genetic DNA that no man or woman can detach themselves from.

It is the “Ruach,” God breathing into us that has made Him unable to stop loving and turning away his attention from us.

It is our divine mark that has kept God so faithful in giving us ridiculous amounts of chances over to return to His intended relationship with us throughout all history.

Humankind has tried to sever his and her ties to their Creator by denying both who they really are and who God really is.

In the Garden of Eden, when God declared all was “good”, and functioned as planned, man and woman took a turn to feast their desires on themselves, which eventually, lead into generations of broken relationships, hard-ache, competition amongst peers and defilement of love. Mankind was found in wanting, walking and scraping for dear life in this new dark abyss waiting for a new created order to occur.

Since then, time and time again God has and still is somehow bringing us back to the first story, to the creation scene. He is graciously confronting us with His nature as Creator. We cannot escape him.

Isaiah 40:28 NAS
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable.

Let’s think about several ways God has revealed to us this continual interplay between his greatest creation and his faithfulness to his nature as Creator:

Before the Garden- before man and woman there was physical darkness.

Man and Woman and all creation lived in relationship with God. There was light. God’s order was in place.

Humankind fell. Relationship to God was broken and now enters murder.

God moves to restore his creation, through the cleansing of bringing on a flood and using a righteous man named Noah to do so. Order is re-established.

Disorder reigns as man builds a temple in attempts to worship himself.

God calls Abraham and makes a spectacular promise to him to lead all generations into a covenantal love, an agreement to make sure his people will one day be rejoined with Him. “And in you all the families of the earth will be blessed." The Lord said.

Then God’s people are enslaved. God uses a man who feels he has nothing to offer and compared to the sight of man, he was right. God uses Moses to lead the people out of the land of despair into the land of abundance and hope.

The people of God have forgotten how their Creator has saved them, how He has loved them, But God can’t seem to give up.

The word used to describe his Love is constant, it is everlasting, it is forever faithful and it doesn’t hinge on any conditions. He will love until he sees his creation brought back to where all is restored. God is not only Savior, He is Lover.

Nehemiah 9:17 NIV
They refused to listen and failed to remember the miracles you performed among them. They became stiff-necked and in their rebellion appointed a leader in order to return to their slavery. But you are a forgiving God, gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love. Therefore you did not desert them.

Kings fell. The people God called out and saved were worshipping creatures as opposed to their Creator and Savior.

400 Years later, God speaks through a man named John the Baptist, another misunderstood individual of society. He said, in so many words, Change your way of thinking for something new is coming! “Repent for the Kingdom is at hand.”

Jesus Christ, God in the Flesh, who was there in the beginning, who grieved and loved His people, came and walked, talked, healed and ushered in the long lost dominion and Kingdom of God.

Taking on the disorder and the muck of the world, Jesus became the final Word and miraculous Deed that would bring all creation back to the place where it once left.

Through the darkness of Jesus’ death and the light of his resurrection, God created a new order of people who exist and participate in God’s redemptive Creative scheme to see all creation restored.

Everyday, our lives as Christians we are, if we know it or not, are characters in God’s Creation account.

Scripture show us that we, like the first days of creation, have been saved from the darkness and have been welcomed and called into the Light.

We find ourselves alive and engaging in the world around us.

And through this dramatic act God has done is continuing to do for us, we too are to do the same. For the Bible says….

1 John 4:11 NIV
Since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.

This imperative instruction is rooted in God’s Great and inspiring nature:


Romans 8:39 NIV
Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

We can never separate ourselves. We can never not be known by the God who created us, saved us and loves us.

one of many


I saw a man in tight blue jeans and a faded yellow-t.

He spoke of his mother less tenderly.

He waved his hands to swipe the hoarders away.

He had no place to stay.

He itched his ear several times too many, only wishing he could reach inside-

Down to the depths of his heart where his one true voice cried.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

i'll drop a thought



The rain is one of the most illustrious life-speaking symbols we encounter on God's creation. What is amazing is no matter the culture, since the days of the great flood, people have understood rain as the natural act of the heavens outpouring of life. It is through this cosmic offering the reality of pain and joy is poetically expressed. The natural earthly elements take shape and interact with God's captivating creation. The rain pours, Discomfort makes her way known, and when all is said and done, flowers bloom, birds chirp, hearts revive, the rainbow shines, promises are proclaimed and ALL creation is more alluring than moments before.

Friday, January 12, 2007

The Challenge



The challenge we all face at one time or another is to become free. You say, “How can this be a challenge? We all want to be free!” But my question for us to honestly answer is “do we”? Well I can’t think of any better way to describe it than this…it is unnatural for you and me to be in slavery of any kind. Since the severance of communion between The Father and His Children, humanity has been born into an unnatural environment that socializes the vulnerable into, what a college professor of mine would call non-living peoples, “pawns”. This socialization process is deadening to the soul, so much to the degree that Life/ freedom seems unnatural to the slave. The slave is even suspicious of such a thought.

The greatest tragedy is to exist without recognizing what has been done and what is continuing to happen. Over the past six years, I have undergone a de-socialization and HUMANizing process that has overwhelmed and energized my, unbeknownst to me, PERSON-hood. This search for Freedom began when I became aware of my vulnerable humanness. I decided at that point to live NATURALLY. Thus, I no longer wanted to be slave.

The remnant of enslaved pawn-existence is still noticeable in me. To be honest it is difficult to forget the patterns of old. But today is the new day, to take a step into unknown territories, where Freedom is closer and LIFE becomes the known reality I was made to live.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Fast.



We all have been moving so fast! Missing the feast.
Our hearts are still famished and our eyes cannot see.
You call us to freedom. We are continually oppressed.
"Set the captives free," you say? How can we get away?
The pull is so strong, don't you understand?
Yes, I do, I felt it in my hand.
Remember, I lifted you up, fed and held you tight?
"Clothe the naked," you say? But what about our great plight?
Listen to my voice, is all I ask.
Remember, you will Seek and Feast with me when you finally fast.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

iMagiNation...the gift found in my head




A thought God gave me after dwelling on his creative and dynamic interaction in our lives:

Be courageous enough to embark on a new journey of living! Take steps into unknown places, like many saints from the past, and eventually the wind from the east will standstill. Stay clear of the barters and desert storms that may sway you back. Watch for the sun; respond to sweet breath from the north. Soon after sojourning un-reached places, you will notice the lands are simultaneously unknown and utterly familiar, and the sun beams evermore.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

It's Alter time!


If any of you have ever read the classic, socio, psycho and philo-work "Habits of the Heart" then you will most definitely feel and hopefully grasp my frustration when I say, "I hate specialization."

How in the world did we as human beings become so removed from walking freely from corner to corner of the earth long ago, with no agendas, anxieties, and especially no desire to OWN something? We westerners (those plagued by Enlightenment to the most appalling degree) cannot, no matter the belief system, remove ourselves completely from the struggle of propriety, and frankly, I despise this!

Confession...I mostly despise this about myself. I am a walking "fear bomb" waiting to go off as soon as I realize, my "specialty" means absolutely nothing! Therefore, I must keep busy to distract, to disorient and to manipulate myself. In some sick way, I feel compelled to sustain a pseudo-reality that was fed to me by those of limited understanding of Ultimate-Reality and who have also fallen into psychological and spiritual traps that believe this life is nothing but a journey of compartmentalization.

When I think of a remedy to this plague, I think of the word Repent. Now I know many of us have associations, memories and ideas concerning this term that make us cringe, for whatever reason. For me, the word has been used carelessly and irreverently. But over the past week, this word has been revived in my heart and mind. It no longer makes me cringe, rather inspirits my being.

Time to elaborate- in my bible class this past week, we discussed the True Gospel Jesus proclaimed. During this time of exploration through dialogue and language study, we got stuck on the word, Repent.

Did you know, in the original Greek, this word actually means to “alter your thinking”! My professor expanded on this idea more and more, and by the end of the session, I felt as though many of us in Christian circles have been fooled, thinking it all has to do with getting actions into check. At that point, I thought my actions are all good- but my thinking is destructive! My thinking hasn’t been altered (and I do believe this is a life process); I still feel captive to strange and wayward ideals. My thinking is involved in an existence where practicalities matter and specialization reigns.

However, here’s the kicker for me: When the last prophet before Christ preached, “repent for the Kingdom of God is near”, he was inaugurating a NEW way of thinking. To all walks of life, he [John the Baptist] says, “alter your thinking for the greatest reality exists! You must believe it to see it!! Let go of the old ways of thinking. You don’t have to hold on to what people want you to be, or what tradition and culture says is right about your identity. The Kingdom is near and it is outside of this world. Let go of the old and embrace the NEW!"

I'm all for it...Repent.

Monday, October 02, 2006

New CaTeGORies!



The epistemological categories we are all accustomed to are not helpful or even sensible to the Kingdom Living we have been talking about.

The Church of Christ is beyond (or at least should be) the categories that make most sense in today's understanding of "what works".

Look, I have been indoctrinated just as much as you have. I am not outside of culture, our current linguistic epidemic, nor institutional pedagogy and neither are you. However, if you are a step ahead of me and are aware of epistemological categories I need to know and impart to those I love, please inform me.

(Just a little rant about my current and unceasing frustrations about the Church and human existence).

Friday, September 29, 2006

Blessed Are You, My Friend


The Gospel (really good news for humans) Jesus preached, in Matthew 5:3-12, and the Kingdom He makes available, offers hope to the earthly down and outs.
(expanded by Dallas Willard and friends).

Blessed are the poor in spirit
["the spiritual zeros- the spiritually bankrupt,
deprived and deficient, the spiritual beggars,
those without a wisp of religion'"],
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn
["the weeping ones"],
for they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek
["the shy ones, the intimidated,
the mild, the unassertive"],
for they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness
["who burn with desire for things to be made right...
in themselves" or in others],
for they will be filled.

Blessed are the merciful
[those who are "taken advantage of"],
for they will receive mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart
[those "for whom nothing is good enough,
not even for themselves"],
for they will see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers
[the ones "in the middle" where "neither side trusts you"],
for they will be called children of God.

Blessed are they who are persecuted for righteousness' sake,
[those who stand up "for what is right"],
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are you when people revile you and persecute you
and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account
[you've "gone off your rocker and taken up with that Jesus"].

Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven,
for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.


May you and I be blessed and encounter the blessed today.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

reflection


Nothing enriches my life more than when I see miracles in the ordinary life unfold in what appears to be mundane.

I love the mundane. We don't give Mundane enough credit. Now, I know I am personifying an adjective, but I think it is rather appropriate.

It is when we welcome Mundane that Extraordinary walks into the room. Mundane and Extraordinary catch each other's eyes and they begin the sweet dance that catches everyone's attention. As they glide across the dance floor and the music plays, people begin to wish they moved the same way. Moments later, the music stops and Mundane and Extraordinary gently let go of each others hands, they await the applause of their audience and notice the faces in awe. As tears roll down cheeks, and playful laughter resounds, Mundane and Extraordinary look once again at each other and say, "it was wonderful to share this dance. We must do it more often."